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Getting by

As the Beatles song goes, I've been getting by with a little help from my friends (and my family).

Yesterday Little T got among his best platelet numbers so far this time -- 146, fibrinogen was 156, so I hope his course of vincristine will be short. He cries more and I think he's lost some weight, but so far (knock on wood) he doesn't seem to be losing his voice/hair and his pain seems manageable without drugs. The effects seem to be cummulative, so I hope the tumor responds as well as it is now and he only needs four doses like they're telling us.

On Saturday our respite care worker bailed on us, because Little T has a cold. They're not supposed to babysit kids who are "sick". How that's interpreted is left up to the respite care worker.

On Sunday my parents came to visit for supper. My mom helped out a bit too which was nice. On Monday we visited our friends Jenny and Sam. Little T had a great time pulling up on their stuff. I also did a bunch of shopping and bought some art supplies for Special K and a pile of binkies for Little T among other things.

I've basically been dealing by not dealing with too much. I got overwhelmed and started having bad thoughts. I hadn't thought them for a long long time. Not since college really. It just means I'm too overloaded and need to cut down on my responsibilities. Since I can't cut down on my family obviously, other parts of my life go dormant. And I'm afraid part of that (at least from the standpoint of my readers) is not posting here too much. When I get on the computer, I can choose whether to write, or to post here, or to play World of Warcraft, and lately the complete fantasy has been winning. I know this phase will pass. Because both C and I played WoW intensively around Christmas when things were really bad. Then things got a bit better and we got tired of it and did other things. C is already showing signs of getting tired of things as we're starting to resolve our financial thing. Though it still majorly stresses me out.


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Feb. 23rd, 2006 02:12 am (UTC)
I'm glad Little T is doing better. That's great news.

It's comforting to know that I'm not the only one who gets bad thoughts when I get stressed.
Feb. 25th, 2006 08:56 am (UTC)
Here I am giving advice rather than support again...

Your life stressors are pegged at above normal, so you might want to keep a mood diary. It's just a calendar by your bed where you jot down a number or few word to indicate your mood that day.

I was worried to read a few days ago that lunch with a friend cheered you up so that you actually ate lunch. If you start losing your appetite, that's a pretty significant sign that you should do something about your stress level.

I'm not suggesting what "something" might be, because you've got a better idea about what works for you.
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