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Dear left brain

I call myself often your heart but you would actually call me your right brain.  I tell you this because you need me and I am your equal partner.  I am actually not all about being emotional.  In fact I am the main one who processes your emotions.  I am the one that allows you to remain calm in a crisis.  I am the center of your creativity your sociability and your passions

Some things you need to know about me that you keep forgetting and I told you to write down here last night.  I tried to translate for you.  It was hard for me but I think you stopped listening.  You are somewhat I don't know the word but perhaps frustrating when you try to make you me.

1.  I work a lot slower than you do.  You are much faster.  You expect me to process things at the same speed.  It does not work that way.  You need to give me time.
2. Talking doesn't help me that much.  At least not talking directly about stuff.  It helps you. 
3.  Things that help me include hugging snuggling exercise petting the cats gazing at the fish writing about other stuff eating chocolate a nice cup of tea sitting in the sunshine rituals watching tv and hanging with friends in a mellow way.  Notice that none of this involves talking about what's bothering me.  You like that.  Not me.  Words are very tricky slippery things.
4.  When I stop writing creatively or have trouble sleeping it means that I am overloaded.  It does not mean I will never write or never sleep again.  It just means I need more time to process things in my own way.  You can not force me when I am overloaded.  You can not make me go any faster.
5. When I don't want to leave the house after some crisis it is also because I am overloaded and can not deal with processing yet more social interactions.  Please wait for me to be ready.  There is nothing wrong with me.  I will be social again.  I just need more time.

You are learning not to put pressure on me and it helps.  I am feeling a bit better as you saw the past few days since I did get out and socialize.  But a lot has happened.  So just be patient.

Your right brain  


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May. 26th, 2007 02:15 am (UTC)
That's some amazing processing.
May. 27th, 2007 04:26 am (UTC)
Thanks! :)
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