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New mom to my emerging book

I have a new title for my first non-fiction book. It has sat comfortably for over a week with me. I think this one will stick, at least until the publisher gets a hold of it.

On Saturday morning I met with a mom, a friend from my Haas days about one of the most difficult chapters of my book. When I told another mom I was writing this chapter, she gave me a horrified look and said with a pregnant pause "That's a weighty topic.". Frankly I agree, but it belongs in the book. My friend thought overall it had the right tone, style and content. Such relief.

I feel like a new mom to this book. I feel like the book chose me and it's not an easy child. It keeps me up at night. It makes me cry. It makes me relive a year I'd rather forget. Sometimes I feel just as bewildered as any new mom. But at last, with some helpful comments, the book proposal has passed from its ugly and awkward newborn stage to a more polished adult form.

As a new mom at times I knew I was winging it and I feared the authorities would find out this gimp had this baby girl and come take her away. I don't feel nearly as scared and insecure as I did in the first few weeks of motherhood. It is after all just a book. And I also know a lot more about writing than I did about motherhood. But I've also learned that just admitting it out loud helps a lot.

On Saturday I was pleasantly surprised. I half expected the mom to tell me 'bad things'. Instead she said it was really good. I'm competent. I don't suck. I accomplished something really difficult.

I still have a long way until a complete book, but amazingly I'm a third of the way there. Part of me knows how this happened since I sat there pounding away on the keyboard, and gods know the revisions have been painful, but part of me is as amazed as any mom. "Look at how it's grown!" I exclaim.


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Jun. 30th, 2006 01:36 am (UTC)
Yay. Congratulations!
Jun. 30th, 2006 02:19 am (UTC)
I can't wait to read it someday. From the proposal I read it will be an excellent book.
Jul. 3rd, 2006 02:49 am (UTC)
Yipee! It's so nice to feel one has accomplished something, especially something difficult. Bravo, Thida.

Jul. 5th, 2006 12:11 am (UTC)
Cool! :) Sorry for dropping the ball, I'll have to read what you sent me! And I'm very curious to hear the new title. Also, cool icon! Its been crazy lately, but Tovar seems to be well, so if all is well with your lot, we should get together some time soon! :)
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