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Poor Little T is turning in a lap baby again thanks to chemo. Sporadically he's very clingy and wants to be held a lot. I hadn't mentioned also that we need to meet with radiation therapy. Bleah. Except our HMO is being slow to approve it so we may need to cancel our apt on Tuesday. Double bleah.

Special K also goes through bouts of weepiness and clinginess too. Little T's not sleeping well and so that means she doesn't sleep well since they share a room. We talked today about how to handle grumpiness and about asking for hugs instead of just clinging to people. It seemed to help. What also helped was yesterday she got a whole bunch of stickers from a kind someone, I don't even know. But she just light up and squealed "Stickers!" and now we have stickers all over her swing. Yes she still sits in her baby swing. And on various bits of paper.

I played with Special K and Little T for 1 1/2 hour today which I confess I haven't done in a long time. Not since Little T had his relapse. Of course I do play with the kids every day but in shorter chunks, or in longer chunks with C. With C, the play is different. I'm not sure I could quite explain it, except to say with me, she's really into imagination play, so we had her stuffed animals talk a lot. I played until Special K said she wanted to watch tv. And I think she needed to veg out a little. Either I've been too exhausted, overwhelmed, busy with Little T's stuff, Little T's been too demanding, or doing some necessary chore. The state of our house indicates I will play with the kids over any non-essential chore, but sadly dealing with Little T's issues, his numerous med apts/doctors and just running a household with one immuno-compromised member means I have a lot of stuff to do. It makes me wonder if we just need to suck it up and get a cleaner again since last weekend I spent time cleaning the bathrooms, which were disgusting instead of playing with the kids and then I was exhausted. And maybe I would feel better if I didn't feel the house was a constant mess. Shopping is also difficult since I can't take Little T shopping. I know Safeway and Albertson's deliver, but I don't actually like to shop at either place.

I also need to start doing my posture and wrist exercises again. And exercise regularly. Until I do, I know I'll keep getting sick. I am coping with too much. dawnd linked to her Rob Brezsny horoscope and mine was spot on.
Sagittarius (November 22-December 21)
"Earth is a school and daily life is our classroom," asserts Dan Millman in his book Living on Purpose. Our teachers aren't always experts and authorities, he says, but often appear in the guise of strangers, acquaintances, children, animals, and unexpected circumstances. The lessons we're asked to master come to us first as simple, straightforward challenges. If we refuse to work at solving them, they take on progressively more difficult and painful forms. Among the most basic of our assignments is the mandate to take good care of our bodies. In my opinion, Sagittarius, that's the most important homework you have in the coming weeks. I hope you'll make dramatic strides in your understanding of what helps your body thrive.

I know I've made huge strides in learning how to take care of myself, thanks to Little T, and Special K too, but I have a long way to go.


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Feb. 26th, 2006 04:53 am (UTC)
I've been thinking of you a lot. I'll try to figure out a time to come by as soon as the craziest bit of the move is over.
Feb. 27th, 2006 09:40 pm (UTC)
I look forward to seeing you. I hope your move goes well!
Feb. 26th, 2006 03:56 pm (UTC)
Cleaning and Horoscope
First, I know we haven't met, but I wish I lived near you so I could a) bring you groceries and b) help you clean. I find cleaning cathartic, so if you'd play with Charlotte (or watch her wiggle on the floor), I'd clean.

Second, I'm a Sagittarius too. And that horoscope is so spot on, it's a bit scary.

Feb. 27th, 2006 09:41 pm (UTC)
Re: Cleaning and Horoscope
Aww, that's so sweet!
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